“Step Four: Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.”

I’m an addict in 12 Step recovery, as I may have mentioned. It goes with my Luciferianism just fine.

Currently I am on Step 4 again (we do the steps over and over, not just once). The Fourth Step is sort of famous for being an ass-kicker. It’s difficult and terrifying, because it requires looking at ourselves deeply. 

This type of soul-searching is potentially very Luciferian in character. It’s about knowledge-seeking and truth-seeking, shedding illusions, bringing light to what was obscured– all this in pursuit of spiritual growth. It’s a good step on the way to apotheosis, in other words. 

Despite the very Luciferian nature of this work, I have been procrastinating from it lately through other witchy pursuits. I mean, why take a hard look at myself when I could be reading Enoch? 

But Lucifer never lets me slack for long, and kicked my ass towards shadow-self work. From there, it didn’t take me long to get it through my thick skull that the 4th Step itself is a form of deep and thorough shadow work. 

So, reluctantly, I sit down and down my damn stepwork. It doesn’t feel as magic or glamorous as that shit I do with cards and candles and dreams, but honestly I know from experience that the 12 Steps is the most transformative process I have ever undertaken. It IS magic in its own right.

I am grateful to have a badass witch for a sponsor, one who can help me incorporate my faith and my magic with my steps. 

And grateful that for my dual Higher Power I have my Inner God, who gives me all the courage, strength and emotional resources I need to deal with whatever may come.. and Lucifer, who never tolerates laziness or self-deception for long.