30 Day Luciferian Challenge: Day 12

12. 

Dogma is something we throw about…that we reject it. Where do you think we may fall short as Luciferians/Satanists when it comes to dogma? Do you think dogma has certain value?

Definition of dogma

plural dogmas also dogmata

1a : something held as an established opinion; especially a definite authoritative tenet

b : a code of such tenets

  • pedagogical dogma

c : a point of view or tenet put forth as authoritative without adequate grounds

2:a doctrine or body of doctrines concerning faith or morals formally stated and authoritatively proclaimed by a church

(From Miriam Webster)

I think this is a good question because dogma does get thrown around as a buzzword far too often, to the point where anyone who has or expresses an opinion about anything at call could get called “dogmatic” by some ignorant jerk on the internet. 

Dogmas are beliefs handed down from higher authorities, and it is a term deriving from the Catholic church. “Authoritative” really is the key word to understanding what “dogma” means. 

I recognize no higher authority within Luciferianism/Satanism, including Lucifer/Satan himself. So I’m leery when some guy like Anton LaVey or Michael W. Ford tries to set himself up as an authority. Satanic/Luciferian churches, organizations, cults, orders, etc. usually leave a bad taste in my mouth– because it seems like all of them end up being goddamn hierarchical! A bunch of followers repeating “I will not bow” and then proceeding to kiss the ass of the Grand Poobah– and often paying membership dues for the privilege!

Someday it would be lovely to stumble across a Satanic/Luciferian church, temple, order, or whatever that I felt comfortable with, because I do long for community. But so far I have yet to find anything of the sort that wasn’t ultimately controlled by some dude on an ego trip (usually with a pretentious assumed name).

So given that I reject the Satanic/Luciferian churches, orders, etc. that I know of, and also feel under no obligation to uncritically accept even the messages I seem to receive from Lucifer himself, there is no source of “dogma” for me that I find valid.

As far as I can tell, it appears that Lucifer appreciates it when we think for ourselves with our own brains. That’s the whole point of the exercise. 

There is also an emphasis in my practice on maintaining doubt and mental flexibility about “facts” that I hold to be true. I recognize that, with new information, even strongly held beliefs may be subject to change. 

Now, does this mean we should isolate ourselves and reject all knowledge that comes from outside ourselves? Of course not! Does it mean we should be disrespectful to older and more experienced practitioners, and dismiss what they may have to teach us? Not at all! Valid knowledge can come from almost anywhere. 

But Luciferianism, in my view, is about doing your own mental work, not simply accepting a ready-made set of beliefs handed down by someone or something that is presumed to “know better.”

So no, I don’t think dogma has a place in this community. 

Call me dogmatic for that if you like (but you’d probably be using the word wrong).

30 Day Luciferian Challenge: Day…. 9?

Whelp. I’m back at it. Who said it had to be 30 consecutive days, eh?

Also, perusing my archives, it appears I somehow skipped lightly over Day 9. So I will fix that right now.

9. How do you feel about God? (aka TBUT, That Bastard Up There)

I started writing a long rant with my personal opinions, but upon reflection, I’d like to approach this in a different way– with scripture. 

By the way, there is a trigger warning on this post for: rape, misogyny, child abuse, incest, homophobia, whorephobia, human sacrifice, slavery, and genocide. 

If you think I am taking things out of context, feel free to go and look up the quotes. There are a lot more things in the Bible that sound really, really bad, but have context that makes them… sort of OK? I have deliberately chosen only passages I found unjustifable in context and/or in any context. 

Genesis 22:2 Then God said, “Take your son, your only son, whom you love—Isaac—and go to the region of Moriah. Sacrifice him there as a burnt offering on a mountain I will show you.

1 Samuel 15:2-3 Thus saith the LORD of hosts … go and smite Amalek, and utterly destroy all that they have, and spare them not; but slay both man and woman, infant and suckling, ox and sheep, camel and ass.

1 Timothy 2:12 I do not permit a woman to teach or to have authority over a man; she must be silent.

Judges 11:30-35  And Jephthah made a vow to the Lord: “If you give the Ammonites into my hands, 31 whatever comes out of the door of my house to meet me when I return in triumph from the Ammonites will be the Lord’s, and I will sacrifice it as a burnt offering.32 Then Jephthah went over to fight the Ammonites, and the Lord gave them into his hands. 33 He devastated twenty towns from Aroer to the vicinity of Minnith, as far as Abel Keramim. Thus Israel subdued Ammon.34 When Jephthah returned to his home in Mizpah, who should come out to meet him but his daughter, dancing to the sound of timbrels! She was an only child. Except for her he had neither son nor daughter. 35 When he saw her, he tore his clothes and cried, “Oh no, my daughter! You have brought me down and I am devastated. I have made a vow to the Lord that I cannot break.” 

1 Peter 2:18  Slaves, submit yourselves to your masters with all respect, not only to the good and gentle but also to the cruel. 

Genesis 19:8 Behold now, I have two daughters which have not known man; let me, I pray you, bring them out unto you, and do ye to them as is good in your eyes.

Genesis 38:24 Tamar thy daughter in law hath played the harlot; and also, behold, she is with child by whoredom. And Judah said, Bring her forth, and let her be burnt.

Deuteronomy 22:28-29

If a man find a damsel that is a virgin, which is not betrothed, and lay hold on her, and lie with her, and they be found; Then the man that lay with her shall give unto the damsel’s father fifty shekels of silver, and she shall be his wife; because he hath humbled her, he may not put her away all his days.

Leviticus 20:13 If a man also lie with mankind, as he lieth with a woman, both of them have committed an abomination: they shall surely be put to death; their blood shall be upon them.

Numbers 31:17-18 Now therefore, kill every male among the little ones, and kill every woman who has known man intimately. But all the girls who have not known man intimately, spare for yourselves. 

2 Kings 23:20-25 And he slew all the priests of the high places that were there upon the altars, and burned men’s bones upon them, and returned to Jerusalem.

Genesis 19:34-36 On the following day, the firstborn said to the younger, “Behold, I lay last night with my father; let us make him drink wine tonight also; then you go in and lie with him, that we may preserve our family through our father.” So they made their father drink wine that night also, and the younger arose and lay with him; and he did not know when she lay down or when she arose. Thus both the daughters of Lot were with child by their father.

I could go on. But instead I am going to ask a few serious questions:

Why is Satanism associated with human sacrifice, when there is so much human sacrifice condoned by God in the Bible? 

If we as Satanists and Luciferians defy this God, why would we ever condone things like slavery, rape, genocide, and human sacrifice? (I’m looking at you, edgelord Nazi Satanists. Fuck off.)

Looking at these quotes, I feel like Christian stereotypes of Satanists are straight-up projection. Child sacrifice, blood ritual, incest, sexual abuse, and murder have long been accusations with which Christians have confronted their enemies– witches, heretics, Jews, Muslims, and pagans alike. Yet it’s all there in the “good book”– and God approved. 

Are we, in turning away from a God like this, truly evil? By what reasonable human standard could that possibly be true?

Day 11

luciferianbuddhism:

30 Day Luciferian/Satanist Challenge.


Do you believe in hell? What kind of place do you think it is?


Is there a realm that Lucifer/Satan rules? It’s earth, right? So why cannot earth be hell? It has enough suffering either way. To say the least I really do not believe in “hell” as a place of fire and torture. It seems quite silly to me.

Yet if “earth” is not the place and there is a real hell, I do not think Lucifer would be a douche canoe to us considering everything God has done. Lucifer would probably be like “eeyyy party up!” Perhaps Lucifer would punish the “evil doers” who have committed serious crimes or maybe help to rehabilitate them. The spirit, if it exists, is not the body after all!

So that is my really short and sweet answer.

30 Day Luciferian Challenge: Day 11

11. Do you believe in hell? What kind of place do you think it is?

(link to challenge because it’s now far enough down my blog that it’s getting hard to find it)

I don’t really believe in hell. I don’t really believe in heaven. 

I accept the remote possibility that maybe hell exists and is a terrible place where I will burn forever for being a Satanic fool, but them’s the wages of free will. I would rather take that risk freely than worship That Bastard Up There (TBUT) and do everything He says in life, just so I can do even more obeying Him and worshipping Him in heaven. 

I don’t really believe in reincarnation either, exactly. It doesn’t make a lot of sense to me to just keep reincarnating on the same planet again and again and again. What’s the point? 

I do however seem to believe in some sort of afterlife… in fact, “afterlife” is a very apt description of it. My best guess is that when we die, we move on to another plane where we live a different life, with different challenges and opportunities for growth, as spiritual beings. In that life eventually we may die as well and advance to yet another plane, and another after that, until eventually, maybe… we become Gods. 

Somebody told me this is kind of a Hermetic idea. I know basically nothing about Hermeticism but maybe that’s the wheel I was reinventing with that. 

On a more somber and down-to-earth note, I believe in living hell, especially today when I look out my window and see the sky completely gray, not with clouds, but with thick smoke from the wildfires up north. Climate change is in the process of turning the world into an inferno. We need to wise up and do something about this. 

I think about the huge squalid tent cities that already exist in San Francisco and Oakland, and I think about all the people who lost their homes to the fires and wonder how much those tent cities are about to grow, and I think about how callous and ignorant most people are about the tent cities and the people in them, and I just know….

Hell is human evil and the ways it shapes the world. 

But we could make this place paradise, too. 

30 Day Luciferian Challenge: Day 10

10. Do you have any daily practices or do you celebrate any holidays i.e. sabbats? Or are your holidays not religious related?

I do have daily practices, which are mostly related to my 12 step program, but I am a Luciferian so Lucifer is all up in them, too. 

I pray every morning. I read the “Just For Today” NA Meditation of the day. I try to write some stepwork every day. Then at night, I write my 10th step, which is basically like a quick review of the day, the feelings I had, any mistakes I made, what I did well, what I didn’t do so well. 

Part of why 12 step recovery is great for me, not only as an addict but also as a Luciferian, is because it’s part self-care and part self-improvement. It keeps me clean, but doesn’t just keep me out of negative patterns– it also helps me grow positively. 

Less frequently, like a few times a week, I meditate. I go to 12 step meetings. I’ll light some candles and incense on my altar, maybe get out my pendulum or read some tarot, maybe cast a spell. 

I am trying to get into daily dream journaling, but I haven’t been the best at that lately. I also need to practice my astral projection attempts way more frequently if I want it to ever actually work. 

As far as holidays go– I stole the idea of my own birthday being the most sacred day of the year. I think that’s a LaVeyan thing. I am also just utterly done with Christmas and am considering just being especially obnoxiously Satanic this year around that time, more as a survival tactic than anything else. In case it’s not clear, I am blatantly talking about just making some bullshit up so I won’t be driven insane by Capitalist Jesus Month, I am not talking about any legit holiday that I can justify historically or scripturally. 

Now that I think about it, it would be REALLY COOL to make up Luciferian holidays devoted to celebrating the Fall from Heaven and the Fall from Eden. I am not sure on what the timing of those would be. Needs more thought. 

I kiiinda celebrate solstices and equinoxes because one of my covens does stuff for those. But the wheel of the year is not really my jam. To be honest, my practice is not terribly in tune with the cycles of the sun and moon in general.

I did, however, utterly lose my shit and spend the entire day in Luciferian devotion when the full solar eclipse happened. That was just… cooooool. I also recently had a lovely time during a lightning storm, hanging out outside burning incense and candles and thinking about Lucifer. 

So I guess what I am saying is that, while holidays and sabbats are nice, I do really love my spontaneous days of devotion as well. 

30 Day Luciferian Challenge: Day 8

8. Do you practice witchcraft why/why not? Is it “Devil” or “Lucifer” (a reference to Light Bringer/Bearer) involved? Why or why not?

I am a witch because… I just am. 

I realize that sounds pretentious. I don’t claim to be super powerful or super special. I don’t claim to come from a long line of amazing witches tracing their lineage back to wherever the fuck. I do, however, have a witchy mother, and the tarot cards she gifted me with were her mother’s before her. So, something’s going on with us. There’s some kind of sensitivity and interest that we just seem to have. 

I was reading tarot and having lucid dreams, and prophetic dreams, even as a child. I was designing sigils before I even know what sigils were, and that they could be used for magic! I learned how to shield myself with energy while I was still a kid. Some of these things I was taught, some I intuited, some I sought out and learned myself. 

As a young adult I became very skeptical, but I still for some reason kept collecting tarot decks and doing other things typical of the “witch in denial.” 

Eventually I stopped resisting my natural impulses and started doing the things that felt right to me, and a lot of those things are referred to as “magic” or “witchcraft.” 

As you might be able to tell from this, I’ve been sort of a casual, intuitive practitioner until recently. I am now trying to do some research and step up my game. I find myself most inspired by the stereotypical ideas of diabolical medieval witchcraft– flying off to the witches Sabbath to bone the Devil, etc. The confessions extracted from “witches” under torture paint a picture of a practice that probably never existed, and yet… I could make parts of it real, you know?

(Minus the child murdering and cannibalism, not my jam. And unfortunately I just don’t have an extra nipple to feed my familiar XD.) But I can learn astral flight. I can go give myself to Lucifer sexually on the astral plane. I can make potions and do divination and cast curses and charms. Embodying that archetype, whether it ever existed or not, is what is truly interesting to me. 

At the same time, my research into “traditional witchcraft” and “sabbatic craft” has been both inspiring and at times frustrating. I’m a little too eclectic by nature to fit into those comfortably, and I have no interest in an initiatory path, or in putting myself in a situation with human hierarchies. 

I’m not completely solitary– I loosely belong to at least three informal, overlapping “covens.” I have mentors and people who I look up to and get advice from. 

But look– I already believe I am talking directly to Lucifer. He is my main mentor, guide, and initiator. Given that, honestly, why would I let a human being initiate me? 

My mind could be changed if I found a coven or group that is VERY in line with my values and very egalitarian in nature, but honestly most Luciferian groups I have come across are not terribly trustworthy and are big old cults of personality. Anybody trying to be the LaVey of Luciferianism can suck it. I want nothing to do with that. 

All that said, I consider myself a novice with pretty much everything except tarot, with which I consider myself intermediate. Sometimes my spells seem to work. Sometimes they don’t. 

I am fortunate enough to work in a queer coffee shop almost entirely staffed by trans witches. I am the only Luciferian in the mix but everyone else is friendly to my path. We have a Thelemite, a bunch of assorted Chaotes, another Satanist more on the atheistic spectrum, a traditional witch with hermetic flavors. (You guessed it– I consider the cafe one of my “covens.”) But what’s really cool is that my workplace is literally always filled with sigils, doodled on sticky notes or drawn in dry-erase marker on the white tiles of the walls. 

Sigils hidden behind the tip jar for better tips. Sigils to protect the cafe. Sigils for fuck knows what, the boss drew it and no one really knows what it’s for so better not fuck with it. Sigils charging underneath the blistering hot water of the espresso machine. 

On slow days, I practice my sigil craft to improve business. It’s great because I can see immediately how it worked, and I am surrounded by other witches who can suggest ways to tweak my wording and improve results when it doesn’t go as planned. 

(Yeah, I basically work in witch heaven– or hell, depending on your point of view.)

So a lot of my successes have been in the area of money magic, because that’s what I get to practice most. I also seem to do fairly well with anything involving protection. 

Still, I consider my greatest talents to be in the areas of divination, not spell-casting. 

And I am still learning. Oh my gosh am I still learning! One problem with being so eclectic is that I have built my path from bits and pieces rather than coherently from the ground up, and I am still discovering ways in which I am missing basics. For example, recently I gave another witch a case of the vapors when she found out I had no idea how to gather energy from sources other than myself, and was basically just throwing a ton of my own energy into every spell, leaving me exhausted every time I did magic. 

OOPS. 

So yeah, that’s me. Eclectic, novice, inspired by aspects of traditional witchcraft, chaos magic, and pretty much anything I stumble across that I like. 

30 Day Luciferian Challenge: Day 7

I am ahead of the game, so, time to get into alternate questions again. 

How do you feel about the religious texts of the Abrahamic faiths? Do you use it as part of your path?

“The devil can cite scripture for his purpose.” – Shakespeare, The Merchant of Venice 

I love reading the Bible. I love Apocrypha and Pseudepigrapha even more. The Bible is like the Hollywood release, Apocrypha and Pseudepigrapha are like deleted scenes and blooper reels that didn’t make the cut. 

OK, that’s not a perfect metaphor, and I am being quite facetious. 

My point is, Abrahamic scripture can be fun! 

So far, I mostly stick to the Hebrew and Christian Bible, and to Hebrew and Christian Apocrypha, because I am a Luciferian. The passages that inspired the creation of the Lucifer myth can be found in the Bible and in Jewish and Chrstian apocrypha. 

The Quran, however, is post-Lucifer. I view Iblis as a very different entity. I respect him, but I also don’t fuck with him, because I am pretty sure he doesn’t like humans at all. I want to read the Quran eventually, because I live in an Islamophobic society and I feel it is my duty to get educated. However, I don’t think the Quran will be able to contribute to my understanding of Lucifer, because he just isn’t in it. 

Reading Jewish and Christian sacred texts from a Luciferian perspective is like a treasure hunt for me, like a puzzle or a game. I dig through these dense texts, which are fundamentally hostile to my beliefs and sometimes feel fundamentally hostile to my very being, and I find passages that I can interpret heretically. So far I have engaged with, and written in some detail, about: 

Genesis 3 

Isaiah 14:12

The Temptation of Christ in Matthew and Luke

I want to produce a lot more writing in this vein! A lot of Luciferians are understandably squicked by engaging with these texts, especially those of us who survived a damaging Christian upbringing. So I see my engagement with them, and analysis of them, as a gift that I can give back to my community– as long as people understand, of course, that these interpretations are my own, are super heretical, and are absolutely up for debate. 

My goal is to make these texts more accessible to Luciferians by opening them up to detailed Luciferian interpretation. I want to do this because, like it or not, the origins of Lucifer are to be found in the Bible. We don’t have to all base our view of Lucifer on the Bible, of course, but I think it’s good to know our origins. 

We are spiritual and intellectual descendants of heretics who engaged deeply with these scriptures. And, real talk– a lot of people burned for daring to interpret the Bible differently than the Church did. I am grateful that, in this day and age, nobody is stopping me from reading the Bible myself, and coming to my own conclusions. 

left-hand-path-notes:

30 Days of Lucifer: Day 10

Do you believe in hell? What kind of place do you think it is?

I mean, yes and no. Do I believe there’s a pit of eternal torment into which I will be casts for being trans and queer and enjoying porn and worshipping demons? Not so much.

Do I believe there’s a realm ruled by Lucifer where TBUT’s presence is withdrawn (because he literally thinks his absence is severe torture)? Yes, I do.

I think it’s…free. Do as thou wilt, you’re fucking dead anyway. Look how you want, be who you want, play with impulses and fantasies you couldn’t while living. I’m not saying it’s necessarily a nice place, I picture it looking a lot like the surface of Mars. But…it’s a place where I can be me. A place where the constraints fall away. Have an orgy, find out what it feels like to jump off a thousand foot cliff without a parachute, read all the books I’m sure have been written there in the millennia it’s been operating, try substances that get demons drunk or high, hell, kick it with the infernal host, sources of wisdom beyond human understanding. Hunt down humans with similar interests and hang out. Eat if you want to or don’t, you’re fucking dead. Sleep if you want to or don’t, you’re fucking dead. Pick up a project or laze around if you want, you- well you get the point.

And somewhere, in the bowels of the place, is a little bitty door. And if you get tired of the party, or bored, or just want to try something new, you step through that door and wake up screaming cold and 30 seconds old, ready to try again in a new flesh vessel. Of course, TBUT doesn’t forgive, so you’ll probably end up downstairs again, but…you’ll be coming home again. Where they’ll boop you on the third eye, remind you of all your past lives, and welcome you with a drink, a smoke, and a leer.

Hell is the ultimate dive bar. And I can’t wait to get home to it.

Look this isn’t how I picture it, but this is awesome. And also…

*boop you on the third eye*

30 Day Luciferian Challenge: Day 6

Doing two questions today because one of my answers is going to be extremely short.

6. Do you meditate?

Yes. 

Usually a couple of times a week. 

Not often enough. 

7. Have you given an oath to Lucifer/Devil…why or why not?

I kind of did… by accident?

While I was agnostic, I got the sigil of Lucifer tattooed on the back of my neck. 

When I became theistic and started trying to communicate with Lucifer, the tattooed sigil developed a habit of… activating. It’s hard to describe what that feels like– shivers like fever chills in the back of the neck, but it almost feels like they are actually outlining the sigil, tracing the shape of the tattoo. 

This was… an unintended consequence. 

Since marking myself like this wasn’t done in a theistic spirit or as an intentional oath, I don’t think Lucifer would consider me bound by it if I ever wanted to leave this path. But I don’t anticipate wanting to leave this path, and I do feel bound by it, voluntarily. 

left-hand-path-notes:

30 Days of Lucifer: Day 8

How do you feel about God? (aka TBUT, That Bastard Up There)

So, I’m actually the originator of the name That Bastard Up There. While that should tell you all you need to know, I’ll expand a bit.

God, or at least, the Christian god, is a raving loon. He created a situation where we were almost guaranteed to fall, and then blamed us when we fell. He incarnated and was tortured to death for a sin of his own making, and now holds that sacrifice over our heads to hold us in line. His demands are asinine, his holy text contradictory, and his followers have fucked with my head so much so often that I have trouble distinguishing reality and am medicated for paranoia.

Hate is a strong word. But not strong enough. I loathe him. I revile him. The legacy of his mad religion in this world is suffering and terror for centuries, and a blood price that can never be washed clean.

If I am wrong and TBUT is the one true god and Lucifer is a damn dirty tempter who seeks to pull me into perdition, I will leap into hell willingly and burn eternally with utter satisfaction and relief that I don’t have to spend eternity doing honor to the evil, nasty fucker. The flames will sear my smile into my face and my screams will be orisons of joy that I have escaped the worst fate I can imagine, to worship TBUT forever.

I don’t like him, is what I’m saying. Not in the slightest.

So.

Yeah.

I mean. 

I try to avoid saying this kind of thing out loud too often, because I actually like and respect many Christians and don’t want to let them hear me talking shit about their God, but

Yes, this is how I feel about their God. 

And that paragraph about leaping willingly into hell is… everything I am about.