Lucifer, break me. 

Rip my heart open.

Help me feel the pain I am suppressing. 

Let it move through me, and then out. 

Shatter me and leave me empty, that I may be filled in time with something better.

Repeat as needed. 

Lucifer, split my closed heart like a pomegranate. Let me feast on the bloody seeds. Let me eat and digest my grief so that I may grow stronger through it. 

Be it so.