What should I read?

Everything! Read every single thing you can get your hot little hands on!

Just kidding. But hey, if you are asking me for a Luciferian-ish book list, here ya go. This is taken from the most recent update of the “sources” page on my blog.

POTENTIALLY USEFUL SOURCES

These are sources I would actually recommend others look at.

  • The Bible (Full disclosure: I often read the KJV because I find it to be the most beautiful version, however I am aware of its failures of accuracy, and compare it to other translations.) 
  • The Qur’an Will tell you nothing about Lucifer, because as a Satanic figure he is only present in Christianity. However, his Muslim opposite number, Iblis, is an arresting figure in his own right. You can learn a lot by comparing and contrasting these two entities. Also, Lucifer wants you to seek knowledge! In this time of rising Islamophobia, refuse to be ignorant!
  • Sefaria.org Collection of Jewish texts, including the Torah. Side-by-side English and Hebrew.
  • Gnosis.org Collection of Gnostic texts.
  • Complete Books of Enoch, Dr. A Nyland Finding a lot that is profitable in this translation and the commentary. Learn about the Watchers and their kids, the Nephilim!
  • Pseudepigrapha.com Giant online collection of apocrypha and pseudepigrapha. Seems to be run by a Mormon. Sure.
  • The Luminous Stone, collection of writings on Lucifer from a number of Western occult and historical perspectives. A mixed bag. But hey, it’s writing specifically about Luciferianism that wasn’t done by Michael Ford, and therefore it is precious.
  • Hemaphrodeities by Raven Kaldera. Good book on transgender spirituality in general, sections on Lilith and Baphomet may be of particular interest.
  • The Devil: A New Biography by Philip C. Almond. History of the “idea” of the Christian Devil, traces his origins in scripture. Includes a bunch of fascinating and entertaining material on witchcraft in the middle ages, witch trials, exorcisms and possessions. (Did you know Catholics and Protestants were literally using possessions and exorcisms as a way of talking shit about each other? This and other fun facts in the book!)
  • The Birth of Satan by Gregory Mobley and T.J. Wray Retraces a lot of ground covered in the first two chapters of the book above, but in way more detail. An analysis of the scriptural sources for Satan. Good, fast read.
  • The Book of Adam and Eve (Latin version) Contains an early version of the fall of Satan which probably inspired the account of the fall of Iblis in the Qu’ran.
  • All the Kabbalah You Really Need to Know A video lecture given by a friend of mine. Great crash-course.

FOR FUN

These are not necessarily scholarly and include works of fiction and poetry.

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some T shirt designs for witchy trans kids ☆ which one is your favorite?

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evviemarin:

For When Shit is All Fucked Up:

1. – 2. WHAT THE: (Center Cross) The face of my current challenge. The crux of what hounds me.
3. ACTUAL: What is real about this situation?
4. FUCK: What is wrong about this situation?
5. ?: Where do I need more information? Where do I need to ask, research, and listen?
6. !: What can I do? What first steps can I take in action?

Hang in there loves!

Full post on the blog: http://www.interrobangtarot.com/blog

And if you like this spread, you might like some of my others: http://www.interrobangtarot.com/contents

Srsly

This, this is the kind of witch I am

Sex, Satan and the Sabbath

So, I have accepted that there is no way of saying this that will not make me sound a little crazy. 

Lucifer has indicated that if I learn astral travel, he will have sex with me. 

Look, I was just trying to ask him about whether offering orgasms was OK, because practice good consent at all times, including with the divine! But the conversation went in a very different direction. 

The sense I got is that he mainly just really wants me to learn astral projection and realizes that the most powerful motivation he can give me is… Lightbringer dick. 

At first I thought I was off the deep end. But then I did some reading (mostly in the chapters on witchcraft in “The Devil: A New Biography” by Philip C. Almond) and became acquainted with the idea that the infamous, orgiastic Witch’s Sabbaths might have been astral experiences. 

Makes total sense and is apparently a common reading. The whole flying thing? Astral flight. Flying ointments? Psychedelics, maaaan. Sex with Lucifer and other devils and demons? Astral sex. 

So let’s just say that, obviously, I would be far from the first. There is a lot of precedent for witches getting it on with the Prince of Darkness. It’s pretty damn traditional, actually. In fact, if certain reports are to be believed, Lucifer has been a bit of a slut. (Would that really be surprising? He’s a Devil!)

I’m still wrestling with this. On the one hand, my skeptical side is yelling at me. You’re crazy, your meds aren’t working, etc. Only, my meds are working, quite well in fact. My mood is stable, I’m functioning better than usual at work and in my social life, and I am way less dissociated from my body than previously. 

Aside from questioning my sanity, I’ve been leery in the past of people who claim to be Godspouses and have astral sex with deities. Partly because some of those people seemed less than credible, but mainly because I’ve been a judgmental asshole. Sure, some Godspouses might deserve the side-eye, but you can say that of literally any group of people. 

And again, as I said before– witches fucking Satan? Apparently used to be insanely common. 

And there are… resources, for this sort of thing? In fact, I found two books (two!) containing chapters on sex with divine beings, for sale in my own workplace! (Wat.)

I also realized I have an acquaintance who I have never considered crazy, even though she can often be seen having conversations out loud with her God in public, who might be able to give me some insight on this stuff. I had a lovely conversation with her. She was very reassuring and understanding. She told me that yes, feeling like I was crazy was part of the process, and that at first it would all seem like a lot, but that I would get used to it. She also told me some horrifying stories about the way others have treated her that really kind of broke my heart. 

A lot of people talk to their God/s and never hear Them talk back. When we hear them, or feel them, it’s natural to feel like we’re going insane. But the truth is that it’s a wonderful gift. We are lucky ones. I guarantee you that there are millions of believers in the world right now having mini break-downs because they call out to God and never feel answered. Sometimes this might be because they have sort of quiet Gods, sometimes it might be because they won’t allow themselves to listen. Sometimes it would even be destructive to the point of their faiths to have too much evidence, since belief without evidence is a legit spiritual path. But it makes me sort of sad anyway. 

So, yes. Lucifer has been talking to me, and I have felt him touch me, and apparently we are going to have sex. And all of that is weird, but it’s not really all that weird or unusual when you get right down to it, 

Because?

Turns out I’m a Satanic Witch, just doing some pretty goddamn normal Satanic Witch shit. 

Go figure. 

Notes on my development

I have been having what feels like resounding success at talking to Lucifer using my moldavite pendulum. 

It seems to be really easy for me to slip into a trance state when using the pendulum. Combined with lighting incense and offering of fruit, this little ritual has given me a more intense sense of contact than I ever expected to know.

He has been very present for me lately, probably due to a confluence of things (using the eclipse energy wisely, my birthday/holiest part of my year, the death of my friend leaving me vulnerable and Lucifer seemingly in a bit more of a nurturing mood than usual). Honestly he’s been available to talk with me day and night, and when I have asked if I am taking too much of his attention or contacting him too much, he has said no. I’m fucking blown away by the kindness being shown me right now.

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Lucifer has indicated to me that he wants me to learn astral travel. I have legitimately no idea where to begin with this, and am very intimidated by the task, but he’s holding out a reward I want more than anything else– to be able to see him and interact with him more viscerally. 

The other day he got a little short with me for the first time– apparently I was saying “thank you” to him too much and he got sick of it. Told me to thank myself. 

OK, Lucifer, I see your point, and I get that you don’t want worship or anything that feels like it. But gratitude is a huge part of my spiritual practice and what keeps me clean and sober. Still, I get it. It’s gonna be a struggle, which, presumably, you are completely OK with. So far my efforts at adjusting to the “less thank yous” bit have often ending with me sometimes mentally snapping “I LIKE AND APPRECIATE YOU, IS THAT OK YOU GRUMPY FUCKER?!” in the direction of my altar. Which, perhaps surprisingly, seems to upset him less. 

Regarding Lucifer and tarot– when I invite Lucifer into a reading, I get a hell of a lot more inversions than in a normal reading. Inversions and how to interpret them are tricky and the subject of a lot of debate, of course. In the context of a Lucifer reading I am tempted to interpret them less in the typical way that I might interpret an inversion, and tend to see them more as representing the “fallen” nature of that card, its Luciferian nature. 

I have also become much more intensely embodied since working with Lucifer more actively. Which for some reason is not what I expected– I am used to spiritual work making me feel less connected to my body. But it’s more like I am feeling an additional layer to my own being– at the moment I am assuming it’s my astral body. I have had a lot of spontaneous sensations of being touched or caressed while talking to Lucifer lately, and those sensations feel very physical even though they are not exactly physical in origin. I am feeling things in my physical body that are coming through my astral body, maybe? I don’t know, I don’t know very much about astral!

I am also seeing auras a little bit– mainly around my moldavite pendant when I use it for pendulum divination. 

It’s an interesting and intense time for sure. I am very excited to see what comes next.