Shatter me and leave me empty, that I may be filled in time with something better.
Repeat as needed.
Lucifer, split my closed heart like a pomegranate. Let me feast on the bloody seeds. Let me eat and digest my grief so that I may grow stronger through it.
Be it so.
1. This prayer was answered.
2. It probably should have included a line like “preferably not while I am at work.”
Lucifer, break me.
Rip my heart open.
Help me feel the pain I am suppressing.
Let it move through me, and then out.
Shatter me and leave me empty, that I may be filled in time with something better.
Repeat as needed.
Lucifer, split my closed heart like a pomegranate. Let me feast on the bloody seeds. Let me eat and digest my grief so that I may grow stronger through it.
Congratulations! You’re a Luciferian now! And you’ve heard about this thing called “apotheosis.” No big deal, it just means becoming a god. Sounds peachy, right? But uh… where do you start?
Well, first of all, I will admit that I actually have no idea. Apotheosis is a spiritual mystery few have mastered (and most of those who claim to have done so are insufferable bores who probably read too much Nietzsche at some point). Answering the question of what apotheosis is, and how it actually works, is a bit like answering the question of what happens after death– I doubt anyone alive truly knows for sure.
Still, you can use the idea of apotheosis as your guiding star. There is a lot you can do in this lifetime, on this plane, to move closer to your own Godliness.
Here are a few ideas! Please feel free to add your own.
1. Apotheosis through self-knowledge
Knowledge is the starting place. Fruit of Eden, right? After Adam and Eve eat the fruit, YHWH says that “they have become like us, knowing both good and evil” (Genesis 3:22).
Like they say, know thyself. Figure out who you are and where you are at. From what point do you begin on this journey? What are your strengths and weaknesses? What baggage do you carry with you?
After that, you can start working on…
2. Apotheosis through self-improvement
Become a better person– which is to say, more like the person you wish you were! Not on a superficial level, either– I’m talking about becoming the sort of person you can truly admire.
Do you need to break some bad habits? Do you have some character flaws that are causing you trouble? Are there talents you haven’t developed, areas of knowledge you want to explore but haven’t? Are you procrastinating something? Do you often fail to take proper care of yourself? You’re human, so chances are your answer to all of these questions is “yes.” Start changing that!
But while you do this difficult work, be sure to simultaneously incorporate…
3. Apotheosis through self-acceptance
I’ll tell you something you might not have realized yet– shame, guilt, and self-loathing are not useful tools for change. They tend to keep you stuck, convinced you can never do better. Breaking this cycle means the end of recriminations, the clear-eyed acceptance of yourself, and the grasping of your own power.
This is shadow work! The “shadow self” is a Jungian description of all the things about ourselves we can’t accept. The path to healing your defects is not in denying your shadow, but in embracing it. By admitting your imperfection you shuck off vanity, by accepting it you free yourself of guilt and shame. That’s three shadow aspects decreased automatically just by the process of acceptance!
Try this: make a list of everything about your personality that you don’t like, and then try to understand how it might better serve you. Most character flaws are actually strengths that have been taken too far. For example: shame and guilt indicate that your conscience is in working order. Angry outbursts are usually attempts at self-defense that became excessive. Vanity and pride are merely out-of-control self-confidence, which is an excellent trait! I could go on ad nauseam. Try it yourself!
After that you might feel ready for…
4. Apotheosis through self-worship
Treat yourself like the God you want to be. Give yourself offerings. Make yourself an altar. I believe our divinity is already within us, in the form of our Higher Selves. If you buy into this idea, then you can treat your Higher Self like any other God. Pray to it, meditate on it, try to feel it and communicate with it and let it guide you. Your mileage may vary, but this works really well for me.
5. Apotheosis through legacy
Great musicians, authors, artists, etc. are often referred to as “immortal,” because their work lives on after they have passed. If you are creatively inclined, why not shoot for this form of Godhood? Try to make something that will carry your spirit on forever.
If you aren’t an artist of any type, you can still do this! Are you the type of person who wants to have children or otherwise assist in raising the next generation? Do this well and you may become a revered ancestral spirit, an entity whose power, love and memory others call on long after you are gone from the physical world.
Don’t wanna deal with kids? That’s fine! There are other ways. Will your legacy be your career? Will it be activism and community service? There are many ways for your memory to live on.
Getting witchier…
6. Apotheosis through magic
If you are a person who does this sort of stuff, you might have already noticed the apotheosis potential of magic. Through your craft, you can influence the world and manifest your desires in ways that other people don’t. You can gain abilities– like astral travel/soul flight, communicating with spirits, etc– that other people don’t have or don’t use. Many of these abilities are associated more with Gods than with humans in popular imagination! Cultivate them and you will quickly feel a little bit more Godlike.
That’s all I can think of for now! Please feel free to chime in.
Re: SEX WITH SATAN!
I want you to know something.
I want you to know that if you are interested in sex with the devil, but still skeptical… skepticism doesn’t mean you won’t have experiences.
I don’t believe Lucifer would do anything non-consensual to those who love him, but
He may open your mind with experiences more visceral and intense than you anticipated, even if you aren’t sure you really believe in this “god-sex” stuff,
And then your skeptical little brain will have to deal with what just happened and how it made you feel.
So maybe don’t give him blanket consent to interact with you sexually at any time, like I did, like a fucking idiot, because
when I say “you” in this post of course I actually mean me,
And I am talking very specifically and non-hypothetically about some stuff that happened this morning.
Oh yeah, also? God-sex and morning quickies aren’t a good combo. Especially if you have to run off to work.
The effects I experienced were like a combo of the intense body buzz of good sex with the disorientation of being really fucking high, because you have to be a little altered to do this sort of stuff usually and I was in a pretty deep trance.
You’re gonna need to ground yourself like crazy.
Am I an expert on this? NOOOOO, as you should be able to tell from this post! I am basically a fumbling virgin when it comes to god-sex. Yeah, I’ve done some reading on how to approach, it but resources are scarce and I’m having to reinvent the wheel. (Can we get some astral sex ed, please?!) (If you have any info to share I am all ears, seriously.)
TL;DR– when you give Satan a sexual come-on, try to be prepared for whatever might happen.
Cleaving through all that there was, all that there had
not been, he came.
Light like a needle, like a blade, piercing through the very
heart of existence—thus was he born.
It was the first birth, and the most painful by far.
The universe of darkness was shattered by his
coming. Nothingness was destroyed by his something, and oblivion was annihilated by his
being.
With him came the possibility of seeing, of knowing, of
things being grasped and felt and touched and defined. With him came pain and joy, impressions, opinions, thoughts, dreams.
When his eyes opened, consciousness came into being.
As he shimmered on those dark waters, the heart of the
void was broken by his beauty.
And God saw the Light, that he was good.
And that, right then, is when God first got worried.
I have been doing a LOT of reading. Unfortunately I am not too pleased with most of it.
The Book of the Law by Aleister Crowley- OK, well, been there, read that, guess I had to at some point. That sure was a book, and also a thing that exists, and you can read it with your eyeballs if you feel like it.
Witchcraft and the Gay Counterculture byArthur Evans- I really wanted to like it, but it made me shriek with uncontrollable rage. If you like soft polytheism and historical inaccuracies, you’ll love this.
I, Lucifer by some dude straight up named Corvis Nocturnum– Don’t buy this, please don’t. There are pretty pictures but it’s the most poorly written thing I have encountered this side of “The Eye of Argon.” I don’t think there was an editor. It is possible there wasn’t even a second draft. There may not have even been spellcheck.
Some better reads:
The Devil’s Bride by Martin Ebon- a neat little book about exorcism from a psychological stand point– particularly about demonic possession and exorcism as a cathartic ritual which leads to emotional healing. Reads as fairly skeptical but is surprisingly open-minded about ESP and psychokinesis. But not demons. OK! We all have our biases, I guess. Anyway, it’s a fun read, but by no means essential.
A Dictionary of Angels Including the Fallen Angels by Gustav Davidson-What it says on the tin. Shouldn’t be your only source but if you happen to find yourself wondering who the fuck Cabiel is this probably beats Wikipedia for a first stop. Nicely cited and will lead you straight to better sources.
Warning: this post is about my personal experiences with Lucifer. In other words, it’s UPG. But I want to share this because it might be useful for the curious to know what Lucifer is like to work with, at least for this Luciferian. Keep in mind, however, that he shows different aspects to us all.
That said, for me…
Lucifer is loving, yet severe. He’s playful, with a touch of the trickster about him; and when I interact with him, I usually sense wry humor and gentle amusement at me.
He is not controlling. He’s about freedom of choice, after all.
He’s very confident in my love for him, and accepts it gracefully without needing it. He recoils a bit at anything which seems like worship, cravenness, groveling, ass-kissing, or excessive gratitude. He encourages self-reliance and self-respect above reliance on him or admiration for him.
He is seductive. He presents in forms that I find heart-breakingly beautiful.
He is a sensual, and even sexual, presence. When he’s around, I experience a lot of spontaneous erotic shivers. He makes me feel my physical body even as I am getting in touch with my spirit. He doesn’t make distinctions between the profane and the sacred.
He’s critical, though not destructively so. He calls me out, and questions my thought processes. Ever had that teacher who was overly fond of the Socratic method– responding to your questions with questions of their own, rarely feeding you a straight answer? Lucifer is like that.
He’s challenging, and lovingly confrontational. He will put all your illusions and failings right in front of your face, and let you run into them headfirst, like a brick wall. When you fall down, he might murmur, “I told you so.”
He’s tolerant of human foibles. He wants me to be my best, but he’s not surprised, much less disappointed, when I am not. He won’t let me wallow in my bullshit, but I have never felt judgment from him. Judgment is really more his Father’s thing.
He’s not purely rational. His encouragement of rationality and critical thinking is well known, but Lucifer knows that wisdom doesn’t stop with what can be rationally or consciously grasped. He’s also deeply connected to instinct and intuition.
He’s fairly hands-off, and not particularly protective. If I am about to do something stupid, he’ll often step back and let me fall down hard. He knows it’s one of the ways I learn. This can seem cruel and harsh, and honestly, it kind of is. I think he takes a certain satisfaction in our falls– but not because he likes to see us suffer. He likes to see us grow, and he’s fine with the fact that growth hurts.
That said, he also stays close. He’s not always an overwhelming presence, although he can be. Often he’s more like a little whisper in my ear, the proverbial Angel/Devil on my shoulder.
He isn’t picky about things like altars or offerings. That stuff is mostly for me, not him. He’s mostly indifferent to them, although he seems to appreciate the thought. He responds best to offerings that also benefit me, especially those that cause growth– and such offerings tend to be less material in nature. Reading a book, learning something new, creating a new piece of art– those are things he likes.
He’s very available. So far, he doesn’t do the silent treatment– if he doesn’t want to talk, he’ll tell me so, instead of simply declining to answer.
He’s communicative and will provide plentiful signs of his presence for those who need them.
He’s not all-powerful, but he is pretty all-knowing, especially regarding human thoughts and human nature. That’s probably part of why it’s hard to offend him or disappoint him. He already knows all my shit.
He is quite powerful, but he’s not always going to lend you that power. He wants you to develop and use your own.
That’s what I can think of right now. Again, your mileage may vary. This is only my experience. Some of these UPGs are SPGs amongst other Luciferians I know, some are even vaguely in VPG territory, but nothing is universal with him.
I believe that the 12 Steps can be looked upon as an initiatory magical system of personal transformation. I also believe the 12 Steps, despite their Christian-influenced origins, can be very Luciferian! In this series of posts, I am going to explain why.
So without further ado, buckle up and get ready for Step One.
“Step One: We admitted we were powerless over our addiction, that our lives had become unmanageable.”
To the Luciferian or Satanist, an admission of powerlessness may seem an anathema. But honestly, all using addicts struggle to admit defeat, regardless of religion (or lack thereof).
For the addict, drugs, alcohol, self-harm, or whatever the specific addiction may be will always ultimately bring us to our knees. Whether we hit “rock bottom” through overdose, imprisonment, disease, homelessness, loss of valued relationships, institutionalization, suicidality or any other means, we all hit it sometime. Addiction beats the shit out of us, and eventually we stop being able to come back for more and still walk away breathing.
But even for those of us who know that the next drink, drug or whatever will certainly kill us, we still can’t stop on our own.
That is true powerlessness. Being completely unable to walk away from something that is killing you. If you’ve never experienced addiction, or addiction that got to that level, this can be hard to imagine.
When a person gets to that point, let’s just say they’re a little bit off the path of apotheosis. Whatever inner divinity they have, they aren’t tapping it. Your only God is your addiction. Not any other deity, and certainly not you! Addiction is in full control of your life.
That’s where the unmanageability part comes in. Even for the addict who has managed to stop using, the problems of life are overwhelming. Most of us, focusing all our time, energy and resources on feeding our addictions, have left our lives in a shambles. Finances, family, friends, work, school, and our own emotions have been neglected, ignored, abused, exploited, or abandoned. We tend to make a big mess when we are using. When we stop using, most of us have no idea how to pick up the pieces!
Worst of all, most of us use our addictions to medicate away our feelings and make ourselves comfortably numb. In the absence of our only coping mechanism, emotions are suddenly very present again, and they are threatening, alien, overwhelming. Most of us barely even know how to identify what we are feeling at this point, let alone deal with emotions constructively. We’re one-trick ponies. Using is the only form of coping that we know.
So here we are, powerless, unmanageable, absolutely beaten to a pulp by addiction. Let’s pause now and think about rock bottom in a more spiritual way.
Let’s think about being thrown from a massive height into the depths of the pit. Let’s think about being stripped of everything we ever had and everything we ever were. Let’s think about losing our wings. Let’s think about falling down. I wonder who can relate?
Lucifer sure can.
This is SPG amongst myself and some of my acquaintances, but we’ve noticed through the commonalities of our stories that Lucifer seems to be collecting those of us who have hit rock bottom. People who have experienced addiction, near death experiences and suicide attempts seem to be disproportionately represented among the Luciferians I know.
And why not? Lucifer knows what it’s like. He knows better than anyone else what it means to fall down hard. He wants to see us pick ourselves back up, just like he did.
There is strength to be found at rock bottom. There is enlightenment in the depths of the pit. To admit that you have truly lost everything that tied you to your old self, is to realize you are free to become someone new.
Think about the tarot card Death. It is a card of endings but also of new beginnings, of pain and suffering but also of transformation and freedom. It is a card of hitting rock bottom. It is the card of Step One.
At the bottom of the pit, we are stripped of all our illusions. We find we cannot run away any more. We must face the truth about ourselves at last.
But that’s a tall order for somebody still reeling from a long fall.
Luckily, with Step Two comes the promise of much needed hope and support.
This is actually the best page on wikipedia. People have apparently used literally EVERYTHING for divination. Highlights include:
cephaleonomancy/cephalonomancy/ˌsɛfəliˈɒnoʊmænsi/: by boiling a donkey’s head (Greek kephalaion, head [with meaning influenced by Greek onos, donkey] + manteia, prophecy)
scarpomancy: by old shoes (Italian scarpa, shoe + Greek manteia, prophecy)
scatomancy: by excrement (Greek skōr [skat-], excrement + manteia, prophecy)
spatilomancy: by animal excrement (Greek spatilē, excrement + manteia, prophecy)
styramancy: by observing patterns produced by chewing gum, gum wax, or products produced by the L. styraciflua tree
uromancy/urimancy: by urine (Greek ouron, urine + manteia, prophecy)
and
tyromancy/tiromancy /ˈtaɪəroʊmænsi/: by cheese (Greek tūros, cheese + manteia, prophecy)
Professor von Hintern, the eminent rumpologist, was a serious student of the occult. He had no interest whatsoever in mundane physical matters, and not a crass, salacious bone in his body. He examined every posterior that came before him with a cool, steady hand and an unflinchingly clinical eye. The joy he felt gazing upon a pair of nude buttocks was born only from his yearning for divine knowledge, not from any prurience. He reacted with wounded dignity whenever anybody implied otherwise.
If you do not believe nonbinary people are truly nonbinary
If you perpetuate transphobic rhetoric
Lucifer is not your friend
He belongs to the trans satanists and there’s nothing you can do about it
Considering that most angels were not actually all that humanoid and were often entirely frightening… I would assume Lucifer had the ability to alter themselves to whatever suits the situation. So I suppose non binary would cover it.. although putting human aspects to them that are above human standards is something I have always found limiting. But I agree with the sentiment above. I just have a lot of thoughts on the depiction of angels both normal and fallen.. especially when they supposedly look like this.. on a good day..
I feel this is where our views differ then, which is sensible seeing as we are not members of the same religion.
While Lucifer is much greater and more complex than any mortal being, that does not mean he lacks human features all-together. To me, Lucifer has always represented the meeting of the Earthly and the Heavenly in perfect balance. So for every features he has that is beyond human understanding or comparison, he has another feature in common with humanity. His associations with sexuality, strong emotion, and survival are good examples of this.
In addition, while the term nonbinary is of human creation, what it covers is vast and perfectly capable of covering concepts like a shifting gender, or a non-existent gender, or a gender completely beyond our comprehension even. All “nonbinary” means is “not solely male nor female”. All angels easily fall into that category. Nonbinary is a term that rejects limits rather than setting them.
I will say though, with all due respect, that as a trans person I don’t appreciate the implication that gender is connected to appearance or form. What angels appear as or are depicted as should be irrelevant to a discussion of gender, because even humans of any gender can appear in a thousand different ways that may or may not be deemed passable for their gender. I find the notion that an angel’s gender would be at all connected to appearance to be much more limiting than the term nonbinary.
I meant no disrespect and I assume our clash is due to differing sides of religions. As angels are described in the Bible they rarely are humanoid of nature and this wouldn’t even be considered to have a gender let alone a form that humans could comprehend. How one identifies is entirely up to oneself. My addition to the post was not that looks define gender but that angels have shifting aspects that can be both humanoid and not and therefore fit nicely under non binary if it is their choosing. My other statement was that because they are higher beings that only we can really hold them to human standards and that they may not even consider themselves anything other than “angel” or “seraphim”. It’s more of a conversation about text and what angels are. I’m sorry for hijacking your post. I meant no disrespect:
Mm, that is my point though: nonbinary means anything that is neither entirely female or entirely male. Literally all other possibilities of gender or the lack-thereof are nonbinary. To identify as simply “angel” without gender is to be nonbinary, as one is not identifying with male or female at all. It can be a term one voluntarily picks and identifies heavily with, but that is not a requirement. So that is why I feel that angels are nonbinary, canonically, because of the bible’s descriptions of them.
But you’re right in that this discussion was not the point of this post, it was made to make other trans Satanists and Luciferians feel safe and welcome in our community, as well as send the message that hate will not be tolerated in the name of Lucifer. It is best that we agree to disagree. Thank you for your apology. Consider it water under the bridge.
OK, I am gonna chime in but first I have to say this. No disrespect is meant to either @luciformspiral or @christowitch . Particularly @christowitch I would imagine you would have a very different relationship to The Bible than us Luciferians, and I respect that, so my reading and the passages I emphasize and the importance I place on what was written when may vary a lot from your interpretations. I really appreciate both of your input, and hope that you can find something of use in mine.
That said, there is Biblical support for angels assuming gendered human forms, and possibly for even reproducing with humans.
In Genesis 18, Abraham has some male-appearing, humanoid visitors who turn out to be angels.
Finally, although the Book of Enoch is pseudepigrapha, Genesis does refer to the story of the Nephilim, who are considered to have been the product of a sexual union between angels and humans:
Genesis 6:1–6 Now it came about, when men began to multiply on the face of the land, and daughters were born to them, that the sons of God (bene Elohim) saw that the daughters of men were beautiful; and they took wives for themselves, whomever they chose.
Then the Lord said, “My Spirit shall not strive with man forever, because he also is flesh; nevertheless his days shall be one hundred and twenty years.”
The Nephilim were on the earth in those days, and also afterward, when the sons of God (bene Elohim) came in to the daughters of men, and they bore children to them. Those were the mighty men who were of old, men of renown. Then the Lord saw that the wickedness of man was great on the earth, and that every intent of the thoughts of his heart was only evil continually.
Now we can argue a lot about what “sons of God” means and whether it actually refers to angels. More on this here.
This summary on the appearance of angels in the Bible seems to indicate that the idea of angels as terrifying creatures with lots of wings and eyes comes from Revelation 4:8. Revelation is of course one of the newest texts in the Bible, and older texts seem to generally have less trippy-looking angels.
Angels being invisible definitely happens a lot. (Angels having big swords also happens a lot. And people falling down on their faces when they see angels is a thing that happens all the time.)
This is not to say that angels are in fact innately gendered, or generally sexual. I don’t believe that one bit, but based purely on what scripture says, I’d have to admit that angels seem to spend a lot of time appearing as human dudes. (Which could be for a lot of reasons involving interacting with patriarchal human societies.)
(Of course I also believe, in the absence of explicit scriptural support, that Lucifer was the serpent of Eden, so I guess that means I believe fallen angels can look like snakes, which would tend to indicate that angels can look like whatever the heck they want.)
So, TL:DR, just wanted to point out that the Bible says various things about the corporeality/humanoid-ness of angels at different times.
Feel free to let me know where I am wrong. I definitely don’t claim to know The Good Book backwards and forwards, although I aspire to. The devil can quote scripture, after all.
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